How does one start a story? This isn't a fairy tale, educational text or some written collective of mis-adventures in a kitchen- it's just life. Granted, it's about the story of someone who does a lot of things a lot, except talk. Oh yeah, there is also the love of the number (3); which there never seems to be an end of beauty in; compositional, historical or finding internal solice in all things/counting in this magical number as if it is a basic way of creating order in an otherwise chaotic life. Candy coated confections have never been my taste but their mesmerizing use of color always has. There are few things in life that I truly love: art, friends, food, wine, my home and laughing. Life should be simple, right? Some of the best math solutions have always been the best explanation of things and any unnecessary complication is either self-indulgent theoretical wanking or not having a solid grasp on the solution/process. Do I know all the answers? absolutely not. In fact, most of the time when I think I've figured something - new ways of looking at things just happen.... like rotating an object in your hand... and sometimes that SW isometric view from the underside can be a bitch.

You might be wondering why I'm being so introspective. The answer is that this coming Wednesday the filming of a documentary on me is going to begin. This is both terrifying and exciting. I put down the phone after being asked by the filmmaker, Aytekin Karasogut, to think of some questions or things I wanted to discuss or do during shooting.

Questions/answers instantly running in a never ending relay race through my head:
Q: What do people want to know about?   A: Not sure.
Q: What the hell am I going to talk about?  A: Not sure.
Q: How fat am I going to look on film?  A: Must stop being such a girl about things. If people want to watch, it's probably because they find me interesting in some capacity; fellow lover of art, love the process, waiting to watch a potential train wreck, are bored and curious, who knows. The reality is that if one wants to get anywhere serious about an art career, folks have to be personally invested in the STORY... not just the art. So as much as all of this is difficult sometimes (complete hermit if left to own devices) it is a necessary part of the career choice. It's a proven fact that when artists talk to potential buyers at an art show, pieces sell with more ease.

So far the blue team is winning.